Six years in the abyss!

I've never been robust, health wise. My energy and drive has been a source of frustration my whole life. I've constantly had the feeling that I was not like other people and marveled at the way they seemed to just live without the struggle, guilt and shame I seemed to deal with daily. I fully recognize that sometimes we can judge others as they appear rather than how they feel inside and I suppose that there are those that struggle as I have but they are the exception.

For the purpose of this blog I'd like to just cover the last 6 years or since the birth of my daughter, I've entered the 5th dimension of hell. Depression, lack of motivation, disinterest, anxiety, malaise, and severe fatigue have dramatically reduced my quality of life. This is not living and if I don't find some answers and crawl out of this pit I just don't know how long I can continue on like this. It's stolen so much from me, and my family. I owe it to them to dig in and fight harder, get desperate and just do anything I can to get better.